Saturday, March 27, 2010

There are no words....

So, today went WAY too fast....funny since nothing around here has ever moved fast for us up to this point! The Doc came in today and told us first thing this morning they had cause for concern.....I guess was the best and worst news to get the bal rolling....Colin was airlifted to Calgary this afternoon and they have him in a room on UNIT 57....doesn't that ring a bell?!?! yup, we're back on old stomping grounds AGAIN! After curling up in the fetal position this morning, my parents picked me up and i somehow managed to get clothes on and be a functional person today. Although i've felt that all too familiar fog that has come to settle over me, now i know it's shock, and i've been doing my unthinkable with having to break it to Corban that Daddy had to go back to Calgary, and that tomorrow morning i have to go up to talk to the Doc's AGAIN! oh, God, how could this all happen again so soon after just coming home to be a HEALTHY family again!
I should back up...we don't know yet what this all means, just that Calgary can be of better care for Colin right now, and they can get the testing done at lightening speed compared to what happens here in Medicine Hat on these issues, so he's in a good place and he's in good hands, and i just have to trust that he's taken care of. I couldn't go today, i just couldn't leave the kids the way we left the last time.....Corban can't take that again. I'm trying to be SO sensitive for him, to make sure he's ok, but now i just have to pray that he's protected. That his mind and his heart are guarded by God, Himself! We cried together and he told me that he didn't want to do this again.....i don't either! i just pray we have the strength for it, i'm living hour by hour, not even day by day....God give us strength for THIS hour!
How i didn't want to draw on you all for support in this way, we were SO blessed to be rejoicing with all of you and how Colin was recovering and progressing...BUT here we are and someone wise just explain what the word "meek" means, "humble acceptance of the unjust things that happen in our lives", Oh, Lord teach me to be meek, Thank You for Your peace that passes all understanding....Thank you for faithful people whom you send to support us, and love us, teach us to find things to be thanful for in all of this!
Once again, we are still unsure of the exact diagnosis at this potint, BUT Colin is in Calgary and he's in good care, i will be going up tomorrow, and my parents are here keeping the boys with them at home in Medicine Hat, i pray i'm not gone too long without a diagnosis!
i will keep letting you know how to pray!
Thank you for your prayers already! WE FEEL THEM~Blessings to you all!

Melissa

5 comments:

  1. O Melissa, our hearts go out to you. We are praying for God's peace for you and for His love to surround you and your boys. Love you guys so much, Grandpa and Grandma

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  2. Dear Colin and Missy, Corban and Keegan - Thank you for letting us follow your journey with you - we are praying for God's sweet presence in your lives, for hope and for healing, for ALL of you. Although you don't feel strong, Melissa, God's grace and strength are evident in your life, enabling you to carry on when you would much rather just push it all away.

    much, much love to you all,
    A. Lorrie & U. Tim

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  3. Uncle Brian & I can't say enough about the strength your whole family has had through all of this, and will continue to have!! We think of you often, and if there is anything we can do for you, PLEASE let us know!! We continue to pray for you!!!

    Love to all!!
    Uncle Brian & Aunt Debbie

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  4. Praying for the Lord to grant you strength and peace as you wait to hear from the doctors. Praying for your family and for healing for Colin. You are loved :)

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  5. Jaap & MorinaMarch 28, 2010 at 4:21 PM

    Melissa,

    I so feel for you folks. Don't know how often I have thrown your names in the direction of the Father's Heart the last few days. And I've never even met you both.

    Thanks for the ever so real updates.

    From Hong Kong, Jaap (& Morina - we're friends of Colin's parents)

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