Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Can this Day End Already?!

Ya know those days where you either wish you could just erase it and start all over again, or just completely bipass it altogether...yup, i'm havin' one of "those" days today. Started out with having to make a bunch of phone calls, which aparently gives the boys permission to do things they would normally never dream of getting away with...I had to go to the office to get a paper with a file number and i find Keegan on the floor in front of the fridge with my acidopholis pills trying to get them open to eat them really quickly while i wasn't looking. (Good thing it was only a few steps away!) Then the boys find it that perfect time to start fighting over a skipping rope that i forgot to put away, which they then pulled so tight each holding an end that it flung across the room when Corban let go, and of course, hit keegan along the way....those are just the tip of the ice berg for the morning. I don't even want to think about what they did while i tried to shower super fast! Wow...it was like my parenting didn't even make a dent today, i'm sure so many of you are smiling right now, thinking, "oh man, have i had those days"! At least we're not alone, right?!
Let's just say, i'm glad i'm at the end of this day and we're gonna try again tomorrow for another good day....today has been an "on the verge" day for me missing Colin, as well, which i'm positive didn't help the parenting situation....some of our best friends were doing their yard in sod tonite, a place where Colin and i would have been helping the instant we were given a time to show up...but i couldn't be there, i didn't have a "we" to give any help at all, and it made my heart break, for Colin's best friend, i can just imagine all the fun they would've had..doing the yard together, they always did have such great times together...just those random moments that make me miss him....i made this great recipe tonite for supper that Colin made in the weeks before his passing, he was so hungry and wanting to try new things to cook, and this one hit it out of the park! Don't know why i did that, with this day, didn't help the "missing him" aspect....when it rains it pours, i guess....i just hope the boys decide to have a better "listening" day tomorrow, not sure i'm cut out for another day like today! God knows, He's carrying this load, too, just some days are harder than others:)
I should go, my vanilla tea is done steeping...gonna go see what i can find on TV.
Luv, Melissa


  1. Oh you poor dear. When I have really testing days with my 2 boys I praise God that I do have help and then I pray hard for you. You have inspired me to not complain, EVER! You are strong, because you have to be. I hope you still feel all the prayers being sent your way. With little boys I find the highs so HIGH and the lows so LOW. I will pray that you have more highs than lows, because the highs really make it all worth it.
    praying faithfully
    Michelle Isaak

  2. One day a woman's husband died, and on that clear, cold morning, in the warmth of their bedroom, the wife was struck with the pain of learning that sometimes there isn't "anymore". No more hugs, no more special moments to celebrate together, no more phone calls just to chat, no more "just one minute." Sometimes, what we care about the most gets all used up and goes away, never to return before we can say good-bye, say"I love you."

    So while we have it, it's best we love it, care for it, fix it when it's broken and heal it when it's sick. This is true for marriage.....And old cars... And children with bad habits and report cards, and dogs with bad hips, and aging parents and grandparents. We keep them because they are worth it, because we are worth it.

    Some things we keep -- like a best friend who moved away or a sister-in-law after divorce. There are just some things that make us happy, no matter what.

    Life is important, like people we know who are special.. And so, we keep them close!

    I received this from someone who thought I was a 'keeper'! Then I sent it to the people I think of in the same way.... Now it's your turn to send this to all those people who are "keepers" in your life, including the person who sent it, if you feel that way. Suppose one morning you never wake up, do all your friends know you love them?

    I was thinking....I could die today, tomorrow or next week, and I wondered if I had any wounds needing to be healed, friendships that needed rekindling or three words needing to be said.

    Let every one of your friends know you love them.. Even if you think they don't love you back, you would be amazed at what those three little words and a smile can do. And just in case I'm gone tomorrow.

    I LOVE YA!!!

    Live today because tomorrow is not promised.

  3. Oh Melissa.... Do I ever know what you mean.... I can't stand it when people say "Boys will be boys," because it seems like they're giving the kids permission to act like little apes, but I guess it's kind of true. Sam is the epitome of a child who acts like an ape most of the time... I just couldn't shower during the day if Sam was awake and we were alone, because he would do something ridiculously dangerous. I'm so glad those pills Keegan got into were just acidopholis... They probably couldn't do much harm, right?
    I'm so sorry that today was a rough day for you missing Colin. I can't imagine how lonely you must feel sometimes, Melissa. I'll keep praying, okay?

  4. Dear sweet Melissa,

    This path you are on is very bumpy. Lots of rough patches will try to trip you up, like this day with your boys. And learning to be one instead of part of a couple will be oh, so difficult. My heart aches for you.

    Thankfully, a night of sleep can turn things around and I'm praying that today will go better.

    "Because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness." (Lamentations 3:22, 23)

    A. Lorrie

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