Friday, May 7, 2010

"...It was Then That I Carried You..."

To be honest with you, i've been dreading this update, almost at a loss for what to say....last nite the neurologist came to assess Colin and determined there was significant symptoms displayed in his nerves....this is resulting from the thickening of cancer still being around the membrane of his brain...this membrane is extremely sensitive and so it is going crazy with trying to fight off this thickening surrounding it. I don't know if i had mentioned before, but when we were in Medicine Hat, this time around, they located a small "mass" or tumor on the base of Colin's brain....this also is causing pressure and effecting the nerves, and it is ultimately resulting with his symptoms. In saying all of this....they haven't seen the cancer get any worse...Praise God...but they are still wanting more results from treatment....they want things to "settle down" a lot more. Today we find out what the team of Docs want to do with treatment...whether to leave things as they are, and do more follow up (MRI, CT's, etc), or add some more treatments. Colin is extremely exhausted and wanting to sleep all the time, which is good, he's there to get better and he's in the safest place he can be. We are nervous for any lasting nerve damage, which also takes a very long time to recover, if at all. God is bigger than this....but in finding all of this new information, and learning a whole lot more about the human body, i stand in awe of how perfectly each one of us was designed and created...An Artist with only the most intense love is the only explanation i can give credit too. Colin and I both, along with our families are so drained. This is such an emotional rollercoaster and i just wanna scream for it to stop so we can unbuckle and get off! The most difficult thing is Colin and i being apart, then having to deal with new information on top of it all, it all just mounts. All we can do is beg you to keep us uplifted in prayer, it's here and now that we need the Almighty to carry us....and just please keep praying protection over Colin's body from the cancer and also from the toxicity of the treatment. That most importantly, Colin's mind can stay strong, his sights to be kept on Christ, alone...and that by holding the Hand of God, Colin will be at peace and find rest.


  1. Oh Melissa, tears prick my eyes as I read this. I long for Colin to be well. I can sense your exhaustion and your anxiety and can only lift you up before our Lord God.

    I found this quotation years ago in a novel, and love the picture of prayer it provides - of lifting up those we love to God. It's my prayer for you and Colin and your families.

    "He prayed as he breathed, forming no words and making no specific requests, only holding in his heart, like broken birds in cupped hands, all those people who were in stress or grief." Ellis Peters

  2. Hi Missy and Colin
    we are praying that God will continue to guide your every step every day! and to continue to carry you when you can go no further. He will give you peace that passes all understanding! and embrace you in His Mighty Arms.
    Amber and Aaron Davidson

  3. Hi Melissa and Colin

    I'm the crazy woman from Costco. I just found your blog today and am moved by your faithfulness and trust. You are both so inspiring to me. You are in my prayers. May God give you peace in these trying times.