Tuesday, June 1, 2010

God, Go Before Us...

Well, here we are again.....The past few days the boys and i have been feeling much better, but now again, Colin's pain and symptoms from the lymphoma have begun....we were told to just moniter them and keep him comfortable with the pain meds they sent home with us....but we are tossing around the possibility of having to head back up early just to get him looked after. Such an unsettling feeling....the 4mg dosage of the steroid WAS working fine and now, it's not working so good anymore, man, i'm just praying like crazy that this radiation works.....it's a different kind of agony to watch the person you love most go through life in such discomfort and constant pain. Our GOD is Bigger than this, and i keep praying God's Healing Promises over Colin.....despite all of this, we are trying to keep things light; to have fun with the kids and be distracted by them....each day Colin and i sit together in the morning and drink our coffee and process a little bit more....i love those times, just to sit and talk about anything that comes up. The kids have been clingy, kinda fighting over my attention, i'm not sure why, maybe cuz they know Colin just can't right now....i'm trying to make sure i can find balance with each of my precious boys, both big and small:) I just wanted to let you know what we're dealing with here the last few days, it always lets me rest assured that someone somewhere is praying for us, when i get an update out, and you have no idea how comforting that is for us! The Heavenly impact you're making by praying is so great, i pray we can all get a glimpse of what God has planned.....scary and exciting all wrapped into one. Please keep praying that Colin can somehow find pain relief, i've been reading up on radiation, and this has been mentioned as a mode of pain relief...Colin also experienced this relief with his chemo back in August 2009 when he was first diagnosed. God can use SO much for HIS good and HIS glory, so God, please use this treatment oppertunity that You have placed in front of us, go before us so we don't have to be afraid, calm Colin's nerves and continue to do what YOU do best, CARRY US!!! Pour YOUR healing rain down upon Colin and restore him once again! AMEN!

i need to go and get our bags packed so we can go at a moment's notice, seems to be something we are getting good at these last few months....i will keep you updated as we go through this week! Love each of you for your time and willingness to read and pray! THANK YOU!
Luv, Melissa


  1. Hi guys... you have been in my thoughts constantly...know that you are not alone in this and that we are just wishing there is something we could physically do to help you....even stop in to distract the boys or something,,,but distance is a really pain right now!! Hang in there,,,we are praying that you find relief from the pain Colin and that God will continue to hold you in the palm of his hand. Love Auntie Dawna for the Motz men too

  2. FATHER WE KNOW THAT YOU have a treasurey in heaven full of body parts. We ask that whatever Colin needs in his body today...we ask that you would come down from Heaven and give it to Colin. We thank-you for it right now in Jesus name. We know all things are possible. We know your word is true, so therefore we believe that you died on the cross for this disease that is in Colins body. You already bore this sickness and disease.Colin doesn't have to bare it. We know that the enemy comes to Kill, steal and distroy, BUT WE KNOW YOU COME TO GIVE US LIFE AND TO HAVE IT MORE ABUNDANTLY. We serve you notice Satan, we command you to take your hands off of Colins body in Jesus name. We speak life now in Colins body. We speak that the light in Colin overtakes the darkness. We ask that angels released to help Colin fight the good fight of faith. That he focuses on you. That he may be able to rest in you with a peace that surpasses his understand. We thank-you for that rest in Jesus name.

  3. Finding balance in times of stress is so difficult. I know you are torn between your menfolk, Melissa. I pray that God will continue to give you grace moment by moment as you need it, for each situation that comes up.
    I'm praying that you will be able to entrust yourselves even more deeply into God's care, because he loves each one of you so much.

    Auntie Lorrie and Uncle Tim

  4. Colin and Missy...Have been following your blog since it started and have been praying for your whole family lots! If there's anything I can do please let me know...
    Christa Enns

  5. Just wanted to let you know that our hearts, thoughts and prayers are constantly with you. Much love and hugs Leza and Bruce

  6. Colin and Melissa, you are constantly on our minds. We pray that God's love and peace will surround you, that you will have confidence in Him no matter what. We sense that you are trusting God and that is such a blessing. What would we do without the Lord? We love you so much and wish we could be there to give you a big hug. Gr and Gr

  7. Colin & Melissa:

    You and your family are constantly in our thoughts. We love you!!!

    Aunt Debbie & Uncle Brian